Moving on is simple, what you leave behind that makes it difficult.
Thank you for the lovely inbox you sent me. I was really surprised that you even remembered my birthday seeing as we haven’t talked for nearly two years. Our friendship have drifted so far that I honestly sometimes forgot that you were once in my life. You made me teary because of the last few sentences you said to me. It really made me think about our friendship. I really miss having you around and being one of your closest girlfriends. I miss hanging out with you, going out to places late at night with you, and just talking on the phone with you when everyone else was asleep. Thank you so much for being there for me, and taking notice of everything I did. Even though you live across from me, it honestly feels like you’re a million miles away. I never see you anymore. And funny that, because when we were close, we would always cross path. Like for instance, going to school in the morning. You and I always somehow leave the house at the same time. Although the strange thing is, I never really actually walked to school with you, or even asked you to walk home with me. You cared for me the most when everyone else left me. You were always there to make me smile. Bringing me food, buying me things, and giving me presents out of the blue. I still have the Yoshi. I remember the day when you called me out of nowhere and surprised me with it. And those days when you would call me just to ask me if I’m hungry because you’re going Maccas and you thought that maybe I wanted something to eat.
I remember the day you went out looking for me. I remember looking at my phone and seeing 100+ miss calls from you. And about 49 messages saying “where the fuck are you” and many other threatening messages; “when I find you, I will fucking punch you in the face!!” which made me laugh instead.
Thank you for taking your time to teach me school work. You really helped me with Biology and Maths. Thank you for being there for me, and being the one who believed in me, telling me that I can do anything if I actually put my “annoying brains” to it. Ha. Thank you for reassuring me that everything will be okay, and that things happen the way they do just because.
Although I never admitted it, but I’m honestly sorry. Sorry for hurting you, sorry for not listening to you and turning my back on you. Sorry for neglecting you when you were the one who was always there for me. I’m sorry for running back to him when you specifically told me not to. I’m sorry for not giving you enough of my time, but used yours for my own benefits. I never got the chance sincerely tell you how much you really mean to me and right now it feels like it’s too late. But regardless of our history, all the fights we went through, all those times I’ve made you angry and all those times you made me cry, you are still special to me.
You are like a big brother to me. And I thank you for everything you’ve done to make me happy.
I honestly hope you’re safe. <3