I feel so empty inside right now. I feel like I need to be somewhere and has got to do something. I’m drifting slowly away from K. Day by day, I’m moving slowly. I feel like he won’t be there for me anymore. I feel so lonely right now. This empty feeling makes me feel like I need to be with the ones I love. Example, V.
I usually do have these kind of feelings but it never goes past a day. But this time, it’s been about a week and I’m freaking out for no god damn reason. I hate it when this feeling takes over me. It gets me so emotional. I just feel like crying and just sitting here, all alone just starring into a blank space.
I don’t know if anyone else feel the same way as I do. But I just want to know that I’m not alone. It just bothers me sometimes when people say they’ll be there no matter what, but when I really need them most, the ‘I’ll be there for you no matter what’ thing turns into a lie. An ‘in-your-face’ white lie. I feel so gutted.
I have wanted to blog about my feelings for a while now. But I just didn’t have the words to describe it. And I’m just afraid that people will judge me based on reading this. Well, I guess it can be understood from your view and also mine as well.
I just finished reading ‘White Lies and Barefaced Truths’. The book was fascinating and I learnt alot from a fictional romance slash heartbreak slash family love novel. It’s a chick flick, my favourite kind of books. I can relate alot to the stories I read. It gets me all emotioned up and ready to burst one way or another.
I still feel so empty. So lazy and so, I don’t know. Sick and tired I guess? Just simply sick and tired.
Love, D. xox