Love, Happiness and Success

My ultimate three goals in life are to find love, happiness and success.

I feel as though these three things correlate to one another and in a way, act as support. I mean, you can’t have ultimate happiness without love right? And it’s impossible to be successful without happiness and the support of your loved ones. It’s impossible to be happy at the end of the day and not feel any sense of affection because then you’ll just be a lonely soul and nobody wants to be that. I believe that everyone should find and definitely have love in their life. I have found mine and I have to admit that I am lucky but at the same time scared to death about it.

I can’t really say I have found ‘the love of my life’ because I am only nineteen years old, and as the saying goes - “what the hell do you know about love at this age?” Well, I may not know everything but one thing for sure is that I know it makes you do, say and think crazy things. It makes you wonder at night, keeps you up and sometime even helps you fall asleep. It makes you plan the future, talk about imaginary kids and how you want your wedding day to be like. It makes you nag your partner about the age he should propose and how many carats the ring should be and how and where he should be proposing. Love makes you think about the future you make up for yourself and your other half which can only be really really good or really really bad depending on how much love it took from the both of you to make it that far.

I can say that I am currently in love and I am most definitely happy. I am satisfied with my current connection with my significant other and I cannot wait to share a future with him. However, there is a part of me that feels insecure about all of this. I’m actually and honestly afraid of what the future might hold. I am the type of person who tends to look back on the past and think about what a fool I was for making certain decisions and imagining the future is also a little similar. What if I make wrong decisions in the future that can ultimately wreck everything I built between the two of us? What if in the future I do something totally stupid and regretful that even asking for forgiveness is out of the question? Moreover, what if I become the victim of a bad-relationship where my heart gets ripped out into pieces and I become a lonely person forever which makes me realize that I will never ever be as happy as I want to be? I’m so scared of what the future holds for me.

The good thing about love is that it brings happiness. I don’t mean just the simple old “oh he made me laugh today” kind of happiness but rather the “thanks for being by my good and bad side” kind. To me, happiness in love is much more different in comparison to the happiness you feel in an everyday situation. The happiness in love is at the end of an argument where the both of you have just finished screaming at one another at the top of each other’s lungs and the both of you have forgotten what the argument was about. It’s the sense of confusion and losing track of the point of a disagreement that brings out the happiness in love because you are so wrapped up in arguing and feeling betrayed and hurt by the one person you thought would never hurt you that you forgot about the whole point of the fight. That’s when the happiness becomes clear – being able to recognize the pain and betrayal you felt by someone and knowing that even though all of this has happened, you should be grateful that they still love you because they are fighting with you. Happiness becomes much more visible when you see the smile on their face, the one strand of hair that is always caught in their face or how hairy their eyebrows look. It’s also the feeling you get when they say your name, or when they laugh or how they always say cute things that melt your heart inside. This is why I believe that without love, there isn’t true happiness.

And of course, where there is love and happiness, there will be success. But for me right now, success is something I am still searching for. It is something I am still fighting hard for and trying to reach. I have never felt so focused and in-it-to-win-it in my entire life. For the first time in my life, I know exactly what I want and I am in the midst of chasing after it. I know I will get there because I have the two most important thing in my life right now – love and happiness.

Davee (2013)